Saturday, March 31, 2007 . 5:50 PM

I am-John Clare

i am – yet what I am, none cares or knows;
My friends forsake me like a memory lost:
I am the self-consumer of my woes –
They rise and vanish in oblivion’s host
Like shadows in love-frenzied stifled throes –
And yet I am and live – like vapours tossed

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,
Into the living sea of waking dreams
Where there is neither sense of life or joys
But the vast shipwreck of my life’s esteems;
Even the dearest that I love the best
Are strange – nay, rather, stranger than the rest.

I long for scenes where man hath never trod,
A place where a woman never smiled or wept,
There to abide to my Creator, God,
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept,
Untroubling and untroubled where I lie,
The grass below – above, the vaulted sky.

(I am- yet what i am, none cares or knows
->living in my own lie, desire
answer to my own woes,
no one can help me only to myself.
friends come and go
->only there to give support
they can even be strangers at time
''though humiliation and noise succumbs me,
its nothing compared to my self-esteem.''
in reality no sense of joys - sadness, empty
but i'm there to overcome - finding ways
the one i love, adore, there to accompany me when i'm alone but its like a statue
->not much help, redundant.
dreaming to go to a place where there is no drama, nothing but being my real self
living like a child peacefully.
no problems to face, think or worry about.

complicated life vs calmness

Friday, March 30, 2007 . 7:59 PM

live a day like a rock and roll star.

i couldn't decide on what to wear til the very last minute.
all black.
gary, sean, neny, sha.
called themselves 'lanigiro'.
haha. figure it out.
head down to the auditorium for lecture and right after that we had a small 'performance'.
haha.
though i never play in a band before, but i like the feel.
haha.
so much fun!

Monday, March 26, 2007 . 8:39 PM

another new big project coming up.
external.
but nvm. i sacrificed my time msn-ing with dani.
my long-tym 'bf'.

haha

Sunday, March 25, 2007 . 8:15 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007 . 11:48 PM

i cant imagine what will vsf2x be without them by my side.
I'll make a wish we'll be together til the day we hold on to the cert.
and maybe...like the famous phrase of all time,
Friends Forever.

Monday, March 19, 2007 . 10:01 PM

A dialogue is always more interesting and enriching than a monologue.

Sunday, March 18, 2007 . 2:01 PM

i had an idea of our happiness.

Friday, March 16, 2007 . 11:24 PM

Her portrait in black.

Hopefully my final piece will turn out good.
in the process.
thanks Lionel n Neny.
love you my buddies.

I'm trying my best to be free from you.

Thursday, March 15, 2007 . 8:04 PM

Usah ragu by Nurul ft Jiggy.
I've been listening to the song over and over again for like thousand times during my journey to school.
ridiculous.
I'm addicted to it till i can even sing it in the bus.

thanks Jiggy.
well done!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007 . 11:00 PM

just when i thought every thing's gonna end,
another appeared, waiting for me.
assignments will be my replacement for DANI.
i am getting the hang of it.

can i just sit here,cry and see how it ends my dear diary?
reacting to the weather. cool and misty.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007 . 9:58 PM

focus.
take in the advice shuhada.
for once.

react and be sensitive.
to anything around you.
good way to start with.
a tap on your shoulder.

one good example by dahlia;
"why am i wearing a pair of boots instead of wearing a pair of slippers like sha? ,
am i reacting to the weather or being decorative?"

just forget about what you said to him shuhada. he's just not reacting to your presence.

Saturday, March 10, 2007 . 4:03 PM

Friday, March 09, 2007 . 6:06 PM

Its weird how you go from being strangers
to being friends to
being more than friends to
being practically strangers again...
and it all happens so fast.
finally assessment for 3d over.
congrat girls!
cheers!

Tuesday, March 06, 2007 . 8:56 PM

left eye twitch. from am to pm.
undergoing a short spastic muscular contraction i guess.
but my friends told me its a bad luck sign.
haha.
being superstitious.

fever on my way.

Monday, March 05, 2007 . 8:19 PM

being ambitious over few minutes does not help.
im still procastinating my work til the last minute.
tomorrow is another tomorrow.
and dead before the actual assessment begins which is 7weeks from now.
-finger cross

Sunday, March 04, 2007 . 6:14 PM

finally its over.
3d. jellyfish.
pin-wheel rotates freely but the structure is still wobbly.
but we thought it over and let it have its own shape as jellyfish.
the final work for the 6 of us.
evelyn, rachele, stella, neny, shaz, shuhada.
there goes my sunday....