Monday, July 31, 2006 . 10:48 PM
fri.the last day of orientation.one of my fren was sittin at the canteen and claimed did not see me.
i was walkin just in front of the canteen.
nvm.
sat.
was fun.met my long-lost cuz.
n coincidently she's a fren of mai's fren.
so we did plan to go out together and eventually we all turn up on sat.
felt wierd.but tings went good at the esp.
n so the story goes.
so here it started.
1st day of getting serious.had 3D lesson.
a combination of 2 classes.
met up wit the other classmates.
n more frens comin up.
was fun stickin tat maskin tape all around.
not tat difficult though.
and today's my father's 44 birthday..
im not quite sure of his age.
hahaha.
pardon me fer that.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Friday, July 28, 2006 . 12:10 AM
u were there.standing right in front of me.
u gave me a welcomin smile.
i see tat with full of hopes.
our precious tears seems like diamonds.
a warmth hug from u to me.
the touch of our skins which i longed to have.
i held u tight with tears.
and we never did let go of ourselves.
i was so relieved n the feelings are just right.
n i finally hear ur words that once i lost.
i cried in silence when i woke up and everytin was just a dream.
ur face was clearly there.
i kept tinkin.
i noe.it never could have happen again.
ive made the wrong choices before.
Thursday, July 27, 2006 . 10:35 PM
postcard design.i named it- she saves the day.
simple.
the night is very cooling.
i could feel the vapour through my skin.
as i look out the window i could see the vapour underneath the lights.
im so lonely.
i miss the warmth.
touch.
deep down i knew only him could give me tat.
its too late.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006 . 7:10 PM
botanic garden.toys. but wth?
nvm. haha. had my first date wit emily.
hahaha.
ok lame.
took some photos. bought a drink a chatted til 1.
just to kill time fer us to be released.
n finally.
had lunch at fareast.
alone.
not askin fer sympathy though.
erghhh...a group of lasalle student stomped in whom 1 of wich is my fren who claimed cnt go fer lunch wit me.wth?
k ferget it. not gona ask anymore.
took my last sip of coke and out i go.
grrrr....
bought stuff at taka.
'can u help me take tis.im not sure whr it is.'
the man'no.i got no time' wth?
i was lyk..grr..but b4 i cud say anytin, he said' but i got the tym to take the things fer u'
haha. caught u.
met hairul then off i went home.
i'm shagged and felt humiliated.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006 . 10:44 AM
i saw roslan on my way bck yest.he's got a cute smile and he's tall.
hehe.n suddenly i think of this song.
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I end my one last cry
Monday, July 24, 2006 . 10:12 AM
22 July 2006.finally its the last day at my workplace.
its been full 8months since last November.
had lots of memories. and the most important is tat im gona miss the pay.
n now my tues will have no meaning fer me coz it used to b my pay day.
im gona b broke like before.
no more shoppin.
so we had a lil celebration lyk a farewell.
they brought spaghetti n some kuehs.
nice2.
lastly we took some photos together.
cik asna at werk
cik rahimah
my lovely mum
rani
preparing food. (pardon fer the blurness.haha)
doink!
eja
my werkplace
mr song.refused to look at camera. instead he wave without lookin at camera.haha
hide n seek mr song???
countdown
andrew.the manager
me n eja (yeay-ness! im taller than her.haha)
everyone.
yest went to RYAN ADAM's birthday party.
well he's turnin 1 year old.
haha.he's my cousin's son.the funny part is tat though she is already wit her 2nd child we stil called her by her childhood name which is KAK MOK.
ahakz!
everytin went alright.i bought a present which i tink ryan himself could not play wit it now coz he still cant even stand on his own.hah.
it is a mini basketball stand.
the place got more kecoh when all the toddlers started crying.
pheeew. but its ok.
all of them are cute. i wonder when im gona get my own junior.
haha.hell ya.
n so we eat n eat n eat while catchin up latest news wit our cousins.
had fun!!
birthday cake
yani(mom) n birthday boy
happy family
caught you!
the end.
Friday, July 21, 2006 . 11:12 PM
sux.orientation was bad.
did not get to know any new frens.hurhur
we(me wan n his indian fren, duno wats the name) went fer the talk and decided to walk off.
wateva happens blame the night b4.
sux.
all the tings i've said made everyone turn me down.
fuck.
enuff.
alip was headin to skool so cnt cabot.
too many times.haha.
tban next.
fucker!
bishan wit his 2 other frens.hafiz and weiloon.
correct?
haha.
ergghhh.both fetchin gf.
fuck.
im so missin tat.
went to rp.ok cool.so damn big.
then head to cp.no shows.
tis fucker said lets go ps.
haha.
MORTUARY was quite ok.
first part. i slept.
grrr...darn bored!!
kk then skali AHHHHHH!!!!
everyone shouted then laugh.
haha.yeah. the zombie appeared! the black puke was nice.haha
at last!!
then came the 'interestin' part whrby tban could no longer hold it.
hahaha!!
n the show goes on wit lots of suspense.
great.
gona watch it again. tis time round should b alone.
nice.
ezlink left $3.50.was $11.50 in the morn.
tis is call wastin of usage fare since we didn have a good plannin.
Thursday, July 20, 2006 . 10:20 PM
where is he who's gona take me so high?a final answer.
yes. i got tat.everytings out.
i did not stand any chance. ive got to stop puttin hopes.
im letting him move on n have his life.
not being selfish to him no more.
but that does not mean im gona stop lovin him.
i'll stop when i am force to.
im refrainin myself to put rants about my love life.
im givin a break.
k so tomorrow is my orientation.
n fer the followin week.
new frens perhaps.
i do hope so.
i nid frens to brighten my fuckin damn life.
~yeah.
not forgettin *oh*my*so*fuckin*lame*TBAN.
haha.
tanx ya.i luvv tat pic in ur rant.
it is so so lovely n sweet.
coz its me! haah.
k lame.pardon me.
ya.but anywoots.tanx fer ur smelly fuckin shoulder fer me to lean on.
i mean listenin to my stupid damn problemo.
n i miss ur companies bck in those secondary school days.
n now havin headache.
erghhhh.
panadols extra anyone??!!
Monday, July 17, 2006 . 10:36 PM
ignored.ppl might say im naive.
but not anymore.
ive been learnin to put everyone b4 me.
make everyone happy n ill b happy.
ive done that soul-searchin lyk wat someone asked me to.
ya i realised it tanx to tat some1.
n i'll help watever i cn fer my fren's sake.
even i knew i love tat someone so much but im willin to give in to others.
Sunday, July 16, 2006 . 10:10 PM
yeay!went to have facial at HAACH MOMENT today.ya.it was my first tym puttin tat fcukin coolin mask on my face.
the place is so romantic sejok nk mampos. overall.a good place to slyp.
was worried to go but after some 'consultation' frm asmida, i made the decision to go for the sake of tryin.n i got hooked.haha.
tat lady's hand was damned smooth.
the mask was there and she left me alone accompanied by those soothin songs.eventually it made me brings back my memories wit him.
shhiitt.
it lasted fer half an hour.
after a full 1 hour berangan jadi anak datin, it ended.haha
n i had a one big slice of pizza for my breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006 . 11:29 PM
im lonely.n im jealous seeing tat.
Sunday, July 09, 2006 . 8:14 PM
batam.haha.i went all crazy shoppin fer clothins.
damn damn cheap.
and i am rich rich there.
haha.
good hell ride in the ferry.
but i was sound asleep.
Saturday, July 08, 2006 . 10:05 PM
aku yang lemah tanpamuaku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku
selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
darimu, kutemukan hidupku
bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati
bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah
nice nice song..
Tuesday, July 04, 2006 . 10:47 PM
i cried so hard during the nights.believing myself im the cause of everyting.
mum makciks at werk: 'did u cry last night?'
well lyk mum said.
karma do comes around.
read the past entries.from the first to the last.
joy,laughter,memories,fyts.
everytin bein noted down.
the romance, the heartache.
i recalled every single moment.
its a lie fer me if i'd say i am not missin those time.
i am.
but things have to move on.
even he is right now.
so i guess all those tears shud b pour out on later days.
hiakks.haha
Monday, July 03, 2006 . 10:18 PM
im weak.after those words.
maybe its just imposibble for the both of us.
tanx.
i'll build my way to a better one.
Sunday, July 02, 2006 . 12:34 AM
i used to believe in forever.things are not as simple as wat you may think.
everything is so weird.