Saturday, May 13, 2006 . 11:21 PM

13 may 2006.

5 mths exactly.
grandma left me.
wit no last werds to b exact.

i cud just recall our last conversation.
the last day we talked, sayin out my name.
the very last day i heard her voice.
til 13th december 2005.
the day she went to sleep.
forever.

'cha, nek nk alek.nk mkn mee sup.bleh tk?'
'nek rehat dulu k.nnt cha belikn.'

my very last.last conversation wit her.
tears.i wiped them b4 she cud see.
i held her hand kiss them.hold on to them tightly.
the very next day..she had to go fer operation.
one after another.
thats when she go unconscious fer a mth.

normal routine visitin her was nvr a chore fer me.
b4 i knew it.it was the last day i held her hand, c her eyes..
she left us.forever.

'martin..whre's nenek?'
'she's up in the sky with god'
once when i had a conversation wit my lil cuzin at nenek's 'house'.(kubo)

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a week.
a week of not-so-on-good-term.
yeah.
perhaps feelings are playin wit me.
i realise it.
tanx fer makin me realise the naive in me.
i never did intend to ask or say tat to u..
but sometimes im just confused.
well.or mayb its the 'period'?
never to loose u.
and i'll stop sayin... 'what if' to u ever again.

:cha


ps. in case u people got confused frm who tha rant is, we'll end it wit our name at the end of the entry.