Wednesday, May 31, 2006 . 9:48 PM

fuck.
u made me said tat.


''why?...sick n tired of me?..so dat u can go out and enjoy getting to noe more guys and pretend that ure single and not proud of being my gf'' being apart?
tink twice.
but being drifted.
everyting is becoming our own secrets.
no longer colourful.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 . 9:11 PM

unfaithful.



MR SONG said im gettin fatter.
mouth moving, body no moving.
hahax.

get tat sentence ryt pls MR SONG.

Monday, May 22, 2006 . 11:17 PM

haiyoh..
wen can meet her???
its been 3weeks man!
stupid workshop test..
i anihow did 18qns out of 20..
wahahha..
dumb dumb me..
shit lah..
she blardy hell got the damn walkman fone i wanted..
and im stucked wit dis stupid t630..
wahahah..
klah nvm ah...
atleast i can still play2 wif it wen we meet...
and wen will dat be?

Saturday, May 13, 2006 . 11:21 PM

13 may 2006.

5 mths exactly.
grandma left me.
wit no last werds to b exact.

i cud just recall our last conversation.
the last day we talked, sayin out my name.
the very last day i heard her voice.
til 13th december 2005.
the day she went to sleep.
forever.

'cha, nek nk alek.nk mkn mee sup.bleh tk?'
'nek rehat dulu k.nnt cha belikn.'

my very last.last conversation wit her.
tears.i wiped them b4 she cud see.
i held her hand kiss them.hold on to them tightly.
the very next day..she had to go fer operation.
one after another.
thats when she go unconscious fer a mth.

normal routine visitin her was nvr a chore fer me.
b4 i knew it.it was the last day i held her hand, c her eyes..
she left us.forever.

'martin..whre's nenek?'
'she's up in the sky with god'
once when i had a conversation wit my lil cuzin at nenek's 'house'.(kubo)

__________________________________

a week.
a week of not-so-on-good-term.
yeah.
perhaps feelings are playin wit me.
i realise it.
tanx fer makin me realise the naive in me.
i never did intend to ask or say tat to u..
but sometimes im just confused.
well.or mayb its the 'period'?
never to loose u.
and i'll stop sayin... 'what if' to u ever again.

:cha


ps. in case u people got confused frm who tha rant is, we'll end it wit our name at the end of the entry.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 . 11:47 PM

10 th may 2006,wednesday

argh..
stress siot nie CRS hmwk...mcm pokiwa
dunno wat to write, dunno wat to do..
even better,dun even understand the article i chose..aggagagag
didnt realise im quite popular at sp..haha..
alot of ppl noe my name..strange..
and the best part is,dey also noe hu's my gf..hahaha.
kewwwl!
aniwoots,everything remains unchange between us..
still no sign of happiness..
she's still behaving strangely..
thinkin bout her saddens me,haiz.. hmm..
lets talk about something special,unique or funny??
haha.
there's one word tat always bring a smile to someone's face.
tat is .sex.
haha.nah...
(heard tat on radio)

well.sharing another love story?
hmm.BOring!
yeah i noe.a story of my daily routine.
haha! that wil just make another lame rant.
guess i'll just post one.

8.30.am
cha!! bangun!!.
tats when i cud hear a hyena shouting out my name.
hurhur.

9.00am
reach VISION PLUS.
my werkplace.
werk starts at 9 but i wud delay it til 9.40am!
haha.i tink i got some shares in the company.
well JIMMY.here u got a nice lady werkin fer u diligently.
haha.*smile*

9.30am-10pm.
hectic duration of long hours checkin fer black dots or flies on those stupid plastics.

10.30pm
computer.

here i am.yeah.
5x8. cik asnah call me the queen of 5x8.
haha.yeah.after 8 mths of werkin at tat small feckin fact im used to checkin tat.
*well fer those whom might be thinkin wat 5x8 is as u've never had a chance to werk at VISION PLUS, it's a size of a plastic beg wich is use to put small computer parts.
5x8 does give me headache.shoulder cramps.sleepy.and werst.makin my butt to be flatter.
damn.sitting fer long hours does have that side effects.
haha.
my dear MR ANDREW wantin 6 pallets of it by tis sat.
feckin him.rushin tings here n there.im all shack by now.
but..well.my dearly aunt is always there to do the magic fer me.
haha.we will go..ala...'uat mcm biase'.haha
we'l just change the plastic without checkin it.
GENIUS.

enuff of that.
though i've got a tight timetable of my daily routine,
i grabbed the chance to enjoy myself on last sun.
when a stranger calls i go....HELLO.who's there?stop scarying me.if u are trying to do that pls stop it.u win.im all scared ryt now.
haha.did i get the script ryt?
went to the Grand Cathay to catch when a stranger calls with them.
well neen.u've got to understand tis.really.do u get wat im trying to say??
(tinkin)***get it??
haha.
yeah.well pictures sometimes cn b deceiving.
haha.

i get it .haha.
do u tink a simple gud-bye will end the play??

Tuesday, May 09, 2006 . 12:22 AM

the werst moment of my life..
this past few days hav been reali stress and cruel for me..
first losing a fren to a freak motor accident..
got me all shell shocked n disbelief..
if thats not enuf,
my relationship wit her is in peril..
losing her will give me a huge blow..
why so cruel..why must he be taken away juz like dat..
and she, wanna say gdbye to evrything we've earn and own..
where hav i gone wrong to deserve such a fcuked up life..
God,plz hav mercy on me..
turn things ard for me plz..
all i want is happiness wif my frens and loved ones..
why cant my life be like evryone else?..
is being emotional now gonna change the whole situation..nah
im so confuse..plz

Friday, May 05, 2006 . 10:30 PM

clouds turn dark
sun hide behind the night,
giving way for the beauty of moon to shine
for i am mesmerizing sparkles of the full moon
as i fall into deep sleep.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006 . 10:57 PM

why?
why so strange lately?
she's so quiet nowadays..wats wrong?
the more she keeps quiet, the more paranoid i ll become..
haizzz..
my freaking skool getting even more stresser(got such word ah?)
so boring..hp so quiet..
evryone's scolding me for no reason..
fcuk lah..stupid life..




if loving u too much is a sin, punish me..