Tuesday, January 24, 2006 . 5:19 PM
24th Jan 2006, Terrible Tuesdaywoke up 2dae ard 8am...couldnt sleep well
had some arguments wit her lastnite..
felt reali bad..
wanted to msg her early in da mornin..but mum hav yet to topup my fone..
tried to go bck to slp..but couldnt..
i laze ard..
3pm...finally mum topup..and straight away msged her..no reply
wen to da carpark to skate wit shaddiq..
tried to ferget bout my problems..
but still..its bugging me..i felt so low..i couldnt do anything right
during skateboarding...i was sent crashing to da ground..
fell very awkwardly...in split 2nd..her face flashes in my mind..gosh i miss her..
wen bck home..msged her again..no reply..called her no reply..
my heart gets more worried now..
till dis moment im typing, dere's still no msg from her..
ive realise evryting now..i must hav been a useless bf..
i look at her pics..touched her beautiful eyes..lips..if onli i could hold her in my arms rite now..
its hard for me to smile now..my heart is crying like a child..
had to hide my emotions from my family..or else they would think im crazy
haiz..why still no reply from u dear?..im soo sorie..
ive vowed to myself, da next time we meet up..im gona make it up to u..
promise u..dere wont be a repeat of dis..i will change myself for the sake of our relationship..
plz..wen u read dis plz reply to my msg k dear..
love u lots..='(
~*nizcha 4eva*~