Sunday, January 29, 2006 . 10:05 AM

i read tat.
having enough said abt me.
i dont envy her.
juz wanted to get things straight.
she made it sound so sarcastic.
i hate you is nvr meant fer you.
i mean at the post.frenster.
but ya..im here not to make enemies or judging ppl.
its her blog n she got her rights to say anytin.
over-sensitive?? hah..ya i admit. i do tat sometyms.
inferior??nah..frens??hmm..mayb..
"Judging like this,we will not be friends.You are like the other girls whom I avoid. Girls should have self-confidence.Have faith in your relationship.Enough said about you."
tis is wat she said..so ya..frens??hmm..let me tink..
i don see y she sound as if there's hatred between me n her..

yest beep azin n decided to mit neen.
took cab frm there.mom went out wit aunt n grandpa.
felt sorry fer him.
probably he's missin my late grandma.
no more smile frm him.
back.sit at the void deck n im sory.
i broke my promise.
sorry dear.
went to her hse.use her comp.
frenster n got a msg frm her.replied.
next LOT 1.
damn! ijal said the food culture was opened.
reached and not even 1 soul was there.
haha.got a phone call frm aizat.mit him at cp. wanna take the ipod.
he took it frm somewhr.n it was nicer than mine.shit.
while waitin.i do tat again.juz wanna ferget everyting tat happen btwn me n him.
i realised im missin him.
3 grls.
stop before us.
she took sometin frm her pocket and threw tt to azin.
i duno wats tat.
suddenly i heard a conversation.
"nah..5 sen.aku derma utk kau.kesian kau duduk bwh"
haha.
wtf?? carik psl. we don give a damn to ppl who r stupid to distub us wit stupid tricks.
they walked away.
there's a couple beside us
he shouted "eh prangai jgn mcm bdk2 a"
i turned to him n smiled.
he too agreed wit us.
few minutes they came bck to us.
tk puas hati la kire kn bile az said "jgn step kakak2"
haha...funny la...we r all the same age..ya..hah..ferget abt tat.
saw dyn n khai.they were out frm the train.
goin bck hme.
then udy n aizat cme at the same tym.
got to noe that 3 grls was aizat's fren.haha.
otw bck saw alip.
he's sick.made a wasted trip.
haha.invited me to np..said theres open house n hes gonna perform.
don werry im gona b there.talk to him fer a while n bck hme.
no one was at hme.
surprised he did reply to me.
mayb tonite we gonna have bbq wit the fam.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 . 4:55 PM

25th Jan 2006, Wondering Wednesday

dad's comin home soon..
soo..no goin out todae...
freaking bored..
she's still angry wit me..
our phone calls had been reali tense..
evrytime after asking her a qn, my head goes blank..
hmm...
ok shit he's bck...
boring day!
and i miss her lots..dun think dis week can meet her..
dun think she wans to meet me..she wanna go out wit cuzins..cant stop her..haiz
gotta be patience wit her..
love her lots..

~*nizcha4eva*~

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 . 11:07 PM

down wit flu.
ya really hurt..not my flu
but him..
my mind wonders eversince i read tat.
to him its notin but only GOD knows wat my mind was thinkin tat tym.
cried in silence.no one knoes
forget it.no point of me recallin bck wat she said.it juz hurt me.

he tried lookin fer me.msges.calls.
i tried to silence myself.
gave in.

nah..werk was damn tiring.i had to do other werk.
diff frm the rest.
flu gettin worse.
got msg frm kak nur.said on sat it's comfirm.
yeah.i cnt wait.gonna enjoy the saturday nyt wit my 2 best cuzz..
hopefully it turns out well. 24th Jan 2006, Terrible Tuesday

woke up 2dae ard 8am...couldnt sleep well
had some arguments wit her lastnite..
felt reali bad..
wanted to msg her early in da mornin..but mum hav yet to topup my fone..
tried to go bck to slp..but couldnt..
i laze ard..
3pm...finally mum topup..and straight away msged her..no reply
wen to da carpark to skate wit shaddiq..
tried to ferget bout my problems..
but still..its bugging me..i felt so low..i couldnt do anything right
during skateboarding...i was sent crashing to da ground..
fell very awkwardly...in split 2nd..her face flashes in my mind..gosh i miss her..
wen bck home..msged her again..no reply..called her no reply..
my heart gets more worried now..
till dis moment im typing, dere's still no msg from her..
ive realise evryting now..i must hav been a useless bf..
i look at her pics..touched her beautiful eyes..lips..if onli i could hold her in my arms rite now..
its hard for me to smile now..my heart is crying like a child..
had to hide my emotions from my family..or else they would think im crazy
haiz..why still no reply from u dear?..im soo sorie..
ive vowed to myself, da next time we meet up..im gona make it up to u..
promise u..dere wont be a repeat of dis..i will change myself for the sake of our relationship..
plz..wen u read dis plz reply to my msg k dear..
love u lots..='(

~*nizcha 4eva*~